On Sunday I did my first-ever cacao ceremony with @amayadominguez6 at @holistikatulum .
It began with the traditional shamanic call to the Four Winds, Gaia & Above.
As I drank the medicine I was both excited & a little nervous given my recent #bufoalvarius experience (more on that another time).
I'm not sure what I was expecting the experience to be. I felt a lovely sense of calm, not all that different from what I experience in my meditations & when I connect to bring forward information for myself, friends & clients.
But I guess a part of me thought I might feel some life-altering heart expansion.
Sooooooo, maybe it's time to realize that my heart is, in fact, open.
And it's time to release. . . once-and-for-all. . . that old story of being closed off or having a wall up or blocking love.
Yes, I lived in that space a long time ago but I haven't dwelled behind those walls in a very, very long time.
And anyone that attempts to tell me otherwise is merely projecting their own shit onto me. (How about that for some heart-centered boundaries. . . which are very different than self-imposed walls??)
I've gotten so much fucking clarity on this trip. It's hard to put it all into words.
The whole of it (and it's not even over yet) is too encompassing. . . too massive. . . too transformative.
At least that's how it feels right now because I'm still in the midst of the shifting.
So while I didn't feel what I thought I might, I was given beautiful visions of my gifts & what I'm here to bring forward.
When our guide said that we are all shamans, healers & teachers. . . and that the world needs for us to bring those gifts forward. . . to no longer hide or be afraid. . . THAT was when I felt my heart burst open.
It wasn't the medicine, necessarily. . . it was the permission to bring my essence forward.
To connect to the lifetimes I've served as shaman, healer & teacher.
It was the encouragement to trust that the path will be illuminated as I'm ready to see it. . . that all I have to do is show up & put one foot in front of the other.
I've walked this path many, many times before. It is the path home. 🙏🏾❤️